maaf.

I'm sorry I kinda played with your heart. I didn't want that to happen, but it did. I'm sorry I gave you hopes because I didn't want everything to end back then, cus everything was perfect.
Then, things stumble down and everything was ruined just because of a single mistake we made. I cried in your arms, you told me it was okay. and I appreciate everything that you said.
So let's end it, right here right now. Because I'm not going to hurt you and that's final.

Say whatever you want, say I'm a hypocrite, say I'm naive, say that I don't care.
I am not a hypocrite neither do I not care but i admit that i was a naive girl and as much as I am very irritated by you saying that, I don't want to hurt you further.

Sheesh, k i've had enough and I don't want to be sad over this matter because my girls are very much helping and understanding towards my whole situation and I thank them for that.
and also, they've grant me my wish of going to the beach after so long and Syafiah&Ayu had to give up their intention of going to the gym just because of me&Lydia. Sorry k, I promise I'll make it up to you two next time k. heh.

and I'm so sorry to Gatria for not being there for her and for dissapearing into thin air just like that.
I'm so sorry for being busy all the time and really, before you go back to Indonesia, you must meet me and we must talk about everything with oreo mcflurry in our hands k! Imy lah girl.

what next?
today i went to jp last minute(i actually wanted to go home),
then I reconsidered so I went to JP with Syafiah and Ayu cos Lydia had to go off first.
We ate at MacDonalds and we had to put in 5 packets of sugar to make the tea sweet. tsk.
We went to look at watches, and walked through the entire shopping mall like.. 4 times,
then Syafiah bought a watch, and we settled at Burger King and waited for Lydia.
Lydia came then she ate at LJS, then we talked about tomorrow's trip,
and then we went home.

oh yes, have i mentioned that i miss you lately?
no doubt that you have caused a lot of destruction in my life, but.. oh nevermind.
I know that having you back in my life would cause me 1 litre of tears again.
so it's okay.
(:

so beach tomorrow, spiderman mat, epok-epok, popiah, pictures, waves, syafiah, ayu, lydia, me.
nice. eh girls, did i mention that i love you guys very much?
hahaha, oh yes I do. k, i sound like a lesbo but so what?!

(edited)
thanks zul, for everything. you're very sweet. hahaha. and don't be sad seeing me sad.(:let's eat famous amos and kinder buenos k! and thank you for being patient with me because i'm always complaining 24/7 either in text messages, or in msn. and yes zul, flowers make me happy.